ThE MumBai LoCal 🚉
ThE MumBai LoCal 🚉
Train platforms have always fascinated me. Metro platforms more so. That buzz of trains arriving at every other minute, people hurrying about.
Who knows how many stories these platforms witness on a daily basis. What would they tell us, I wonder if they could talk. Would they talk about the guy who broke up with his girlfriend there so she wouldn't create a scene? Or would they talk about something happy like a kid who took his first steps there in front of his parents?
I remember when I held her hand as she was about to leave. There was so much I wanted to say and nothing I really could. She hugged me and held me close, not wanting to let go either. God, I thought, I love this girl. I love her in every moment and those tiny spaces between those moments. I did not think I could sufficiently tell her all about in one lifetime. For the first time in my life I wished that the Hindus are right and when you marry someone, you marry them for the next seven lives.
Give me those seven lives with her and then maybe, just maybe, I could come close to tell her how much she meant to me.
"I am sorry", she whispered to me. "You have no need to be", I told her, "This isn't your fault. It's not anyone's fault in fact. It's just the timing. That's a bitch to deal with".
"Shut up please", she said in mild indignation, "For once in your life, please, please stop making excuses to make me feel good". "I can't do that", I replied slowly. "And why is that?", she asked looking straight at me.
"Because I do not love you consciously. It is not a decision I make when I wake up everyday. I have never known what is the correct way I am supposed to behave in a relationship because I had never been in one till I met you. And even with you, I do not try to do anything to please you. But there's this one rule I do follow- If it makes you smile, it's right. If not, it's wrong. It's simple. And it keeps me happy because seeing you happy makes me same.
So when you ask me to stop trying to make you feel good, I am sorry but I cannot do it. I cannot pretend to be the one to care less just to gain the upper hand in a relationship. I will love you through and through unconditional
Who knows how many stories these platforms witness on a daily basis. What would they tell us, I wonder if they could talk. Would they talk about the guy who broke up with his girlfriend there so she wouldn't create a scene? Or would they talk about something happy like a kid who took his first steps there in front of his parents?
I remember when I held her hand as she was about to leave. There was so much I wanted to say and nothing I really could. She hugged me and held me close, not wanting to let go either. God, I thought, I love this girl. I love her in every moment and those tiny spaces between those moments. I did not think I could sufficiently tell her all about in one lifetime. For the first time in my life I wished that the Hindus are right and when you marry someone, you marry them for the next seven lives.
Give me those seven lives with her and then maybe, just maybe, I could come close to tell her how much she meant to me.
"I am sorry", she whispered to me. "You have no need to be", I told her, "This isn't your fault. It's not anyone's fault in fact. It's just the timing. That's a bitch to deal with".
"Shut up please", she said in mild indignation, "For once in your life, please, please stop making excuses to make me feel good". "I can't do that", I replied slowly. "And why is that?", she asked looking straight at me.
"Because I do not love you consciously. It is not a decision I make when I wake up everyday. I have never known what is the correct way I am supposed to behave in a relationship because I had never been in one till I met you. And even with you, I do not try to do anything to please you. But there's this one rule I do follow- If it makes you smile, it's right. If not, it's wrong. It's simple. And it keeps me happy because seeing you happy makes me same.
So when you ask me to stop trying to make you feel good, I am sorry but I cannot do it. I cannot pretend to be the one to care less just to gain the upper hand in a relationship. I will love you through and through unconditional
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